I'm 24, I'm Gay, I'm a Virgin, I'm Your Brother, and I'm Very Scared & Alone

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On 9/10/2017 at 12:20 AM, ImStrugglingBad said:

 

Dear Young Struggling Brother,  

If I may, I will share my experience as a parent of a gay son.   My son was in his 20s when you admitted to me he was gay.  I remember it clearly.  I was in the kitchen and my son approached me saying he had something to tell me.   He is about 6'2 and I'm 5'7,  after straightforwardly saying: "I'm gay" he collapsed on my shoulders sobbing with his whole body.  I could tell this was a release of years of stress.  I held on while he went from sobbing to crying until he could pull himself erect again.  We were both crying and I assured him there was nothing that could extinguish my love for him.   Later in a quiet moment we talked about it.  I assured him that Jehovah and his family would love him but accepting behavior based on his "natural" desires would not be accepted.  He asked me; "so I can't be happy?"  I assured him he could but there are many who have restrictions on how they live their lives, me being one of them since I'm divorced.  I explained I can't go out and have a fling or date with just anyone even tho I'm free to do so.   I've been on a journey to understand why there are so many homosexual people.   Form follows function and it's clear from the human forms man and woman were engineered to be sexual mates.   I used to think it was a choice but seeing my son crying out, "I hate it" changed my thinking.   I don't understand.  I talked to a young photographer who told he was gay and said he doesn't understand it either.  I heard a Dr state it was a nutritional issue at a certain point when the embryo was developing,   We might not know until the new system what is causing this change (enviorment, nutrition, etc).  I know of 2 elders who are gay.   We older ones remember them growing up (they are brothers).  One left the truth and lived the gay lifestyle for a few years but returned to Jehovah and strengthened himself spiritually.  It's known by quite a few he is gay.   I continue to try to understand the mechanism but love the individuals.   

My suggestion to you is your stress comes from hiding what you are.  John Bradshaw (author) had a saying,  "you are as sick as your secrets".    Tell Jehovah you need to talk to a mature person and to please bring them info your life.   It sounds like you are fairly young and going thru the period of your life when you sexuality is as its peak, as you age it will lessen.  But what you need is someone to listen and care and accept you as you are.   Also, keep in mind there are sisters in the truth that will never marry or have that intimacy you crave as well.   We need close companionship that gives us honest and loving feedback no mater our gender.  I will pray for you, my dear brother.  Please don't give up, the world is sugarcoated and can appear as a solution but it's not.   Keep your self-respect.   If you need to send a personal email, I will surely answer.

Much love and concern,

Your Sister in the Universal Family of Jehovah